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+Whoever's reading this, if I am dead, please ensure the following is delivered to Reina Anabon, one way or another. Much appreciated.
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+    Greetings, Dear Reina.
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+    Sorry for bothering you one last time. I am currently writing this on July 20th, 2025. I had originally planned on telling you this in person, as I know you much prefer dealing with things face to face, but if your reading this, it seems something has happened, and I will no longer be able to talk to you again, or at least until the new world (I hope).
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+    Anyways, the purpose of the message, is an apology. Remember when I first texted back in March, and told you that I liked you, and then told you I was an idiot? I knew I was, but I didn't realize the extent of exactly how stupid I was. I wanted nothing more then to enjoy a relationship with you, to really be your friend, and to get your thoughts and perspectives on all the ridiculous things life had in it. In truth, that hasn't changed. I can tell you for sure I wanted that right up until the end. 
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+    However, in doing so, I failed to understand something very important. In order to earn, and be worthy of your love, I first needed to earn, and be worthy of your trust. And that is something I completely skipped over. Granted, I don't really know of any way I could have earned your trust, living on the other side of the country, and basically in a different world then you did, but skipping over it was not the answer. You even warned me you weren't a fan of long distance. I thought that was something we could work around, but I didn't fully understand that either. 
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+    Reina, I want to apologize to you for showing up in your life out of nowhere, telling you that I like you, trying to rush something you totally weren't prepared for, and not even giving you a chance to stop and get to know me first before inviting myself to come see you. I was wrong in doing this, and handled it completely wrong, and if anything I'm grateful you even agreed to spend the amount of time you did with me.
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+    If your still reading by the end of this, I appreciate it, and want to tell you this. Everything I told you how I feel about you is 100% the truth. You are the single most amazing person I have ever met. After I spent that time with you in March, especially Sunday night at In-n-Out, I really, genuinely fell in love with you, and have spent all my time since then doing my best to figure out how to get to Okinawa permanently, so I could see you again (of which actually might have been successful, ask Austin about that). But, as I said before, before a relationship ever starts, there needs to be a level of trust that I completely ignored. Reina, if I ever seen you again, and if you'll have me, I would like nothing more then to be your reliable, trusted, and ever present friend. Even if I never am able to earn your trust and love, I would be very, very grateful to count you among my close friends. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and may Jehovah continue to guide you, and make your paths straight. 
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+    Always yours,
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+    Spencer Grimes
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